i'm so sick of hall... it sucks...

today i had my first hall dance practice. i wasn't too looking forward to it, plus there was miscommunication regarding some logistics stuff like reminding the dancers, the venue for dance, and i dunno why was juz so pissed at everything... prob cos i was juz too stressed and worked up...
but at least we finally settled to dance in hall 12 function hall opp canteen. the choreographer is indeed pro, and i can see tat she's a passionate dancer. her style is sexy, pop and modern-ish. but while doing one of the hand movements, my old injury on my upper left arm came back. the injury i got while in tkgs playing the goal-keeper stopping a handball... haiz... first dance prac is alrdy liddat... i can imagine how crinched my face looks when the pain stuck and the muscles and fibers juz like turned and twisted... i thot my whole arm felt abit detached... now its becoming abit more painful... i thot, maybe God is using this to tell me tat i shldn't join this stupid IH dance competition, or juz simply stop wasting time trying to earn points while i have a 70% chance of wanting to move out of hall next year... i'm really sick of hall life, i appreciate the convenience, but no place is more warm than my own home and room... dun haf to compromise and be open to peer pressure. frankly i've learnt alot more how to coop wif my studies away from home, but its juz this feeling of being away from home and not spending enough time wif family tat makes me feel sad... here staying in hall the purpose is to save time and energy travelling, be more focused and less distracted by tv and other distractions at home, but somehow the price to pay for staying in hall juz doesn't really pay off both financially and mentally?? ... actually i'm in such a dilemna... there're pros and cons for not staying in hall... wld i be able to coop wif my studies if i dun stay in hall? wld i really be used to waking up much earlier and sleeping earlier to travel to sch? wad if during raining days? ...... sigh..... i really appreciate all tat i'm given now, like the 24hrs internet access, freedom, frens, etc...but somehow my character juz doesn't fit into all these... i think in all, discipline is the key...
how i wish i could be on my own bed at home, watching tv wif mom, or even be in front of my own study table... i miss home... hope tat the new year holidays come soon...