after this neurobio paper, the most fearful paper, i think perhaps my brain is undergoing neural degeneration... or maybe it'll soon reach "neural vegetation", a term coined by mr.piggie... haha

sigh... i seriously dunno how i should be feeling...
should i be happy becos most of his hints did came out?
or sad cuz i didnt study hard enough having wasting half a day when i was only left with 1.5 days to study this module?
or angry becoz i didnt go for his lectures and missed the other hints since my fren said the stuff he mentioned during lectures came out...

i guess i really thank God that all that i studied, i managed to recall most stuff... but i felt like i could only manage ~50% of the entire paper, ie only prepared for 50% of the requirement of the paper... and everything is factual, so it was an impossible-to-crap kind that got me stuck at most questions... perhaps i learned my lesson the hard way, for not putting in more effort at finding out from frens what i miss in his lectures, and simply skipping them becos i could make no sense out of the lectures i attended, making me demoralised and hence i stopped going altogether...

well... it was finally over for this paper... dunno if i should hope for a pass with C or D (which adds to my collection of Cs), or hope to fail in order to retake it again... i guess according to my prof its hard to fail unless the exam flunks and the person didn't hand in lab report... i did my lab report, which counts for the CA marks, so perhaps i could pass... well, just keeping my fingers crossed and hope for the best... i'm willing to accept whatever the Lord gives, according to what He thinks i deserve...

one last paper on Friday... Developmental Bio - very heavy content... and again, i've yet to start studying ): even if i did so to prepare for the quiz, i had already forgotten everything...short-term memory... i'm losing the energy since the exam has been so long and draggy... but its my last attempt at making any difference in the GPA for this sem... only abt 1 day to cover EVERYTHING... is it even possible? "all things are impossible with man, but everything is possible with God"- sometimes i found it hard to apply. but i believe i just need a little more faith that He'll carry me through it once more since He had already brought me through thus far...

yep. pls remind me to have faith, and start mugging and stop being piggie!!!