God... thank You for helping me pull through last week's Mid-Autumn Fest and Hall production... but now i'm so sick... got a horrible flu and worst still, i got an organic prac which requires me to try to smell and detect esters... haiz... prob a blessing in disguise cuz e mucus protet my lungs... but i'm feeling so horrible... entire nose is blocked and my right eye is very red and painful... i'm resting enuff leh, but dun seem to get well.... God... i need yr healing.... i'm so weak and helpless....
my studies is still in a mess.... starting this week is full flaged practicals and lotsa reports to work on... and the BS 205 assignment is like so hard... i need more time!!! timei sacrificed to my tuition kids.... helping them wif their schwork but i'm leaving myself in such deep shit lor... PILES of work to do, readings for lectures haven done at all and i'm still so sleepy during my own revision time and lectures.... i really dunno how.... i think i've forgotten how to cry le... very stressed, but i noe God yr comforting spirit is within me and my threshold of pain has increased... but God... am i really on the right path? am did pple say uni life is much better than JC? now i feel so insecure becos there's not much guidelines... i have to learn to leave my comfort zone of being spoonfed... muz learn to be independent...
exams are in nov... approx 1 mth's time... but i still dun really feel anxious... i'm not exactly doing anythg abt it... like even when i start revision plan, it'll haf to be from e very beginning.... God teach me to haf patience and determination to help myself.... sometimes i really dunno wad to pray... i'm in such deep stage of confusion... i can feel everything's bottling up within me, but there seems to be no outlet and i miss mom at home, i miss my sis and Shaun, daddy, cell grp, some entertainment and even time for myself and God... i wanna cry but no tears... its juz e stupid flu virus tats making my whole body and mind weak...
i think i better go back and start building up momentum for the exams...
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