stupid me...

today i woke up late again... last nite was lying on the bed at abt 12am after a few sit-ups and the next moment i find myself awake is this morning when Huimin called me... sigh... and the first thg i rem was my laundry so after i brushed my teeth i rushed to take it. thank God it wasn't thrown out of e washing m/c... so i went back to hang back my clothes, somehow w/o any sense of urgency, which i dunno why... there's juz tis inertia and reluctance to go to school... i can imagine if i wasnt staying in hall, i could be ponning most of e lessons cuz i hate to travel so far! thank God i haf a hostel here on campus! :)

so somehow i rationed tat since this is e only prac tt dun need to do lab report, and most of the time i felt tat its kinda waste of time to sit thr and most of e time not understanding most of the stuff taught, plus i haven do my econs tut, and i dun wana be late for his lec... so i decided to skip it, but when i met Serene later during DG, she told me tt it was impt not to skip his prac cuz its more useful than his lec... den i was so sad... so silly of me to always make unwise decisions and do the wrong thg at the wrong time! why am i liddat??? haiz...

there's juz 101 thgs on my mind to do... but somehow i am not managing my time well.... big qns-> my efficiency and productivity is horrible! God! help me stay awake w/o eating as i study, if not my weight is gg to increase exponentially... :(

now i'm really dreading weekends becos there's tuitions... i think i find more joy teaching others than myself... how ah? i'm such a stupid idiot student.... i'm desparate.....

recently i noticed sth quite strange... how come out of nowhere i always bump into him one ah? so coincidental.... and at interesting times.... God, is he e one u meant for me? when will i find the answer? as i'm waiting for him to come, i am willing to let you groom and prune me into a more refine lady b4 i am suitable for him whom u planned for me to meet....

haiz... somehow u're always on my mind ~~~

better stop dreaming and get back to the lab report b4 i'm struck wif e sleeping spell...

God, help me to learn to be more obedient to You... and not fall for Satan's traps.... tell me what to do at the correct time...