DANCE

You have been such a huge part of my life that I’m missing you so much, ever since I sort of gave up on you last year… when I get to try the different genres of dance that I don’t like, and juz simply cant bring myself to do them. You are so versatile that I probably take the rest of my life to know you deep enough…

Doing a quick count, this is gg to be the 13th year having you in my life. But becos of busy schedules I did not make time for you. Haiz. Kinda regret now becos feeling old and stiff without the stretching I used to do… the jumps, splits, kicks, etc… muscles also turning into fats, not as toned as in the past anymore. But at least I have less ‘craking’ of my bones, but my alrdy weakened shoulder and ankle joints still do give me some problem…

Having watched ‘so you think you can dance II’, I got inspired again to take the dance floor and stage once again. The passion I see the dancers elude simply sparks the inner passion I have for you ever since young… you have been my best friend, my favourite form of exercise, an area where I could make my mom feel proud of me when I score well for my ballet exams every year… you taught me how to express myself even when I dunno how to say them in words. U make me aware of how body language works, and I just loved the endorphins u trigger my body to produce, which makes me happier after each routine. Although there’re tears when I train for each performance, but you taught me how I shld persevere on for my dream… it is only when I’m on stage, put on make-up, I can be transformed into the character to suit the dance theme. U gave me a chance to express my joy and freedom in body movement, which is so restricted in the stressful world today.

I’ve tried other types of activities, in hope to find one that can replace you in my life. But I guess I’ve juz simply fallen too deeply in love with you that none others can keep my interest for long… fencing, being the most recent one that I’ve tried, is so different from you. I think the style of how I move and carry myself is juz too evident in my life that its hard to break free from u or totally forget abt you, becos even as I run, though I may not feel it, my frens used to say I look like I’m dancing & not running. Haha that was usually taken as an insult most times, becos I juz cant run fast enuff, but now I think it was a compliment… haha

Sadly, I always feel offended when I tell pple that I used to dance, somehow I juz hate to see the disbelief in their eyes, as they scan thru my whole body, unbelieving how come I dance and yet I look so fat, esp my legs… its been a sad case why my calves are big, but I guess its both genetics and wrong emphasis of training of those calves when I did a certain type of dance training….

Oh well… I cant wait to hit the dance studio once again…. My life is missing out a huge part
without you…