inspired...to dance again :)

in the midst of all the studying and memorising, i actually pampered myself a little by watching the movie 'honey'. its been on my comp for quite long and haven watched it, and for comforting myself for not being able to watch survivor at the tv lounge... haha... come to think of it, its quite deprived tat i hardly watch any tv or movies (alas!!! the movie voucher Nira gave last year is not used yet and its gonna be due by end of tis month!!! sigh...no nice movie and no time to watch now...) well, i knew its abit waste of time to do anything else besides trying to study and catch up wif schwork, esp memorising the tcm concepts (done it e whole afternoon and i'm proud to say i actually did my own notes-stuff tat i really need to get into my brains, and yuxin say i'm very neat ;p haha tis made my day), but wanting to 'reward' myself for some hard work, i decided to watch it. now after watching i felt inspired to move on...

'Honey' is a movie abt dancing. its theme is similar to 'save the last dance' (one of my fav movies) where there's a typical lead actress (jessica alba who plays 'honey' in movie honey) who's a passionate dancer who simply wants to work her way out to life her dreams and passion. in it, it showed inspiring personalities like perseverance, determination and of course strength. honey is more special becos she has an additional compassion for little kids who simply loved to dance, who cant do anything else but juz dance. honey who is a bartender and a hot dancer in this pub she works in, was somehow talent spotted by a dance director who asked her to be the choreographer. she went into it just like tat! but such goodness comes wif a dark scheme which is the director wants honey for himself. but she showed courage to resist temptation. she loved the kids and even wanted them to play one of the mtv tat she was choreographing. but the dance director was hard on her since she rejected him. but she still wanna start a sch for neighbourhood childred to teach dance. but she dun haf money to buy a place to start the sch since she lost her deal wif the director. so she decided to help the kids put up a gd show to raise funds. its was a great success. even her parents came to support her. she din dance, but the kids put up such a gd show tat even parents of those kids were impressed and their parent-child relationship was improved. in the end it was a happy ending...

the best part of the show must be when honey's bf reminded her tat such goodness (honey getting to dance on mtv and choreograph the moves) must only come from God. how true! and how refreshing to the soul to be reminded tat all goodness comes from God... one of the naugtiest kids in the bunch was really a pessimist who thinks tat some pple only get gd thgs but not all gd pple will get gd thgs. but tats untrue! as long as we believe in God and haf faith in him tat he'll bring us thru every situation in our lives, God is always in control and he will never shortchange us.

on top of it all, i'm really inspired to hit he dance floor once again wif an open mind to learn to accept and appreciate other 'hip' types of dances. really hope to learn from a gd instructor again... felt so discouraged when i realised tat i cant even choreograph any 'cool' steps after so many years f dancing... well, at least i know for sure tat dance choreographer is not my calling. haha. and to be a prima ballerina is still a dream i'll dream becos its an inspiration... its a pity to gif up on dance juz becos of the setbacks i faced in hall dance. so now is the time to get back to work and the hols will be mine to explore and enrol for a dancing class again!

your needs i can only guess, wif the help of the Holy spirit, but i cant do beyond wad i shld... realised tat i shld only go to the extent for u to once again see God's love thru me and to place your hope on God instead of on man... wad more can i ask, but to always remind myself tat i need to be obedient to God, w/o drowning myself in a well of emotions for u, and submitting myself to God's will for me instead of twisting God's hands for thgs to work out my way... i've learnt my lesson decided nv to fall back... when will the day come, for me to truely be sure how to love others and accept others' love?